Each meal this weekend was just off campus at a place that made 집밥 (Jip Bap) or homemade meals. Breakfast was 설렁탕(Seol Leong Tang) which is cowbone soup. I unfortunately did not get a chance to take pictures of this, however I have added lunch and dinner. Lunch was 김치 찌개 (Kimchi Jjigae) and as you can see it is delicious. We also had some seaweed to wrap our Bap in! Mmmm. Dinner was 떡만둣국 (Ddeok Man Du Guk) dumpling soup with rice cakes in it.
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| Kimchi Jjigae! |
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| Side Dishes! |
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| The students all at a community table. |
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| More students crushing it. |
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| The myriad of umbrella colors. |
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| Dinner! |
At night we went to the movie theater. This was really cool because it was my first encounter with public transportation here in Korea. I have heard it is phenomenal. Well, I can't quite comment yet because we really only went a few stops, but everything seemed good. However, the movie theater was pretty cool.
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| Selfie with An Hyo Sang! |
This is a quick video of the "Megabox" lobby. It is very modern, and the inside of the theater is like one of the newer theaters in America. Nice personal style seating, with semi-reclining options. The movie we saw was Beauty and the Beast. Man I was not looking forward to this. I had seen the cartoon as a young child, but didn't remember the story very well. I have to admit they did a wonderful job. I did not expect to like it, but I really enjoyed the experience. I even cried a little. I realize that's silly as I talked about keeping my man card in tact earlier in this post, but I'm starting to learn how to open my heart and experience emotions that I repressed long ago. I truly believe that God is healing me with this trip. It's only been a week and already I am physically and emotionally better than I was back home. I'm experiencing things I had long since forgotten and I'm only now realized how emotionally stunted I was.
I don't know the thoughts of most single guys, but I imagine that they think about having a partner a good amount. I found myself in this mood during the beginning of the movie. Of course seeing Emma Watson on screen makes most men long for someone who looks like her. I'll be honest she isn't my cup of tea, but she certainly isn't ugly by any means.
I'm just gonna lay it all out there, I've been pretty lonely. Which is funny because how can you be lonely while being super busy with work all the time and fitting in friends only when you have time? Now add in traveling to Korea to the mix and meeting so many new people, and it should be impossible to be lonely. Well I think everyone understands the yearning for a partner in life, and boy was it hitting me hard last night.
I wouldn't normally post about this, but I think it came up for a reason, and took a very interesting path. Anyways, so I'm watching this fairy tale movie with a beautiful leading actress just singing the "why me" blues. It was funny because Belle was starting to remind me of a girl I used to be in love with. I had probably a good 10-15 min spell watching this movie where I was super emotional and nostalgic for the time I spent with her. I started thinking about how I had made such a huge mistake by not taking the chance with her when I had it. I wondered if I would ever get another chance like I had with "the one that got away".
That type of thinking started to give way to thoughts about how life isn't a fairy tale and some princess isn't going to come waltzing into my life that fulfills my requirements in a mate. At that point I started to get sad and anxious. I'VE BEEN HERE A WEEK AND I'M NOT DATING SOMEONE YET?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Lol, the brain is illogical many times. I need a girlfriend! Is what my brain was screaming. I was overcome with longing. I remembered what one of my most adored mentors told me about love. He told me that if you want something you need to go and take it. The same thing goes for love, go make it.
I gotta be honest I think this notion screwed me up more than I'm willing to admit. This is the world's view of things. Does your heart desire money? Go take it. Fame? Go make it. You're in control of your life, and your fortune. While it is true your decisions are your own, what you have been given is allowed by God.
I realized that I needed to pray. While I've been praying for God to provide me with what I need as far as someone to be with, this time I prayed for him to settle my spirit, I prayed for comfort. God answered my prayer. By the end of the movie my spirit had calmed and I realized that he would provide me with exactly what I needed and that I shouldn't worry. Chances are I need to be healed before I'm able to be in a stable relationship anyway, and he knows the timing for that much better than I do.
I was also worried that I might miss someone that he sent to me. That for some reason I would screw things up. Maybe he already sent the right girl and I was too busy worrying about worldly things to see it. I know that even if his plan is for me to be a bachelor my entire life I am prepared for that as well. I am in complete submission to him.
Korean Word of the Day: 쉬다 (Shwe Da) To rest, usually pronounced without the W sound. Can be conjugated to present tense as 쉬어요 (She Uh Yo) meaning I rest. Also with 쉬세요 (She Se Yo) which is "Please take a rest".
TL:DR I'm in Korea
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